A Month Later

It's been a month without my knife.  It's been ok.  Everyday I want to cut myself though.  There were a couple days maybe where I didn't want to hurt myself once, but mostly I want to everyday at least once.  It's really hard not to. I just want to drown everything out because I can't handle it, but I guess I'm surviving so... it's okayy... but it hurts and it's hard. I feel so alone still and always.